New Blog
I moved my blog to www.rdeemed4real.wordpress.com. Please check me out there...
Seeking the real truth... feasting on the Word of God...Looking at our world, seeing how we fit in it...
It's been hard for me to post lately. I'm in a weird place right now. I'm truly being tested. Being challenged. I think I'm a little stretched right now, trying to do too much, trying to be everything to everybody, yet know that I'm not being the best wife and mother and SELF that I can be. I'm letting minister, nurse, and student supercede my family... and most of all God. I'm feeling such a disconnect, like something outside trying to take control of me. I don't feel joy at church, so I need to do SOMETHING to get my joy back.
You ever see things go so wrong, that it points you in the right direction? Ever been somewhere where NOTHING makes sense... I mean nothing... constantly... You begin to get used to the nonsense. If someone does something that does make sense, it hits you by surprise.
I've been a nurse for a long time. I've seen a lot of death. Been in lots of emergency situations... But yesterday I was in a "code" for over 3 hours... I really didn't think that this guy was going to make it. I prayed... as I was working frantically... we defibrillated, or shocked him over 20 times... It was unreal...
Have you ever been so disappointed in someone that you care about that it effects everything that you do? You try to shake it, but it just keeps coming back? I am at a strange place right now. I am frustrated, trying to do my assignment, the assignment that God has given me, but I keep running into a road block... I have to stay focused on who has given me the assignment. I have to remember that I am here to serve God, to help further His Kingdom... It's hard sometimes. I want to get an A on my assignment. I want to hear "well done, my good and faithful servant..."
This class that I am taking, Christian Ethics, is awesome! It is an online class, so there is no real interaction. Actually the interaction on the discussion board is quite disturbing, because I can't figure out what most people are talking about as they are not basing their discussion on the readings... The book is awesome. It's not easy reading, but it has some really good stuff in it. I'm looking at the whole world differently now. The part that is cool to me is the part about how rules are based on principles and that rules can be overridden by principles...Hence the spirit of the law vs of the letter of the law. The Pharisees vs Jesus' interpretation of the Law and Prophets is a key issue. Jesus came to fulfill the law, not end the law.
I haven't been posting as much lately. Life has been getting away from me. School just started and I really don't know how this semester is going to go. I've never done an online program before and there doesn't seem to be much guidance. I just have to trust God on this one... I'll try to post more often...