I hear you Lord!

Lord, I am so tired. You go on vacation just for a week and come back and the bottom just falls out of everything at work... My job is so demanding. I just don't know how I make it some days. Yesterday we had 4 nurses call in sick which left us with 3 nurses for 30+ cases. It was horrible. Plus, I was on call, so I had the potential of getting called in at any time. I got home around 10 pm, so I was cross-eyed. It is so true how God never gives you more than you can bare. I know I would have cried if I had to go in last night.

Today I was through, just so through with it all. Doctor's getting on my nerves, patients getting on my nerves, co-workers getting on my nerves...I don't think I have a nerve left. I really don't. I'm so glad I'm off tomorrow. It really gets to the point of whether I am being the best I can be for my patients. When you get so tired, you sometimes lose focus on why you are there in the first place. Without patients, I wouldn't have a job. Sometimes you begin focusing on your needs instead of the patients and families needs.

Sometimes this happens in ministry also. Things sometimes don't go the way you would like. People don't think like you think and you start to lose focus on why you are even in this thing. You take your focus off of God and things get all messed up. You think about how someone hurt your feelings and think about why you didn't get credit for all the work you are doing and God just jumps out of the way. He can't be in the same place as all of that. He becomes displeased. It's easy to lose focus.How can I break this cycle? How can I get back on track. I know today I just had to go off to myself, cry a little and ask God, what is it that you want me to do? I lost my focus for a second, but He regained it quickly... at least today, anyway.Thank you God, for smacking me around a little today. I needed the wake up call...